and a couple of years later you were watching on cnn another shooting that took place in upstate new york in bloomington. what did you see, and what was your reaction to that? >> guest: it was april 3rd, 2009, almost two years after the shooting that i had been involved in. and i learned a great deal during that two-year time about how the situation i was involved in came to be. the school policies and the mental health policies and gun policies, how this person was allowed to buy a gun and despite having a record that prevented them from doing so they had a mental it to the occasion. i hadn't seen other shootings. i couldn't watch them up until that point but just how i kind of naturally turn on the tv that morning and saw the tv break i couldn't turn away. i sat there and i watched the news unfold throughout the course of the day and i thought this is how the whole world saw me and yet we change nothing. yet there was no policy on non-policy and mental health policy and i kept hearing that. what gives, and finally the was the end of that day, kind of my tipping point i have to deli